JFU

It was a day that hung like the dot under an ! mark. Round and suspended and full of jabs in the sides and pokes in the ribs as people pointed out the thisness and thatness of the much and such life. When everything was suppose to be going fine, something new started...... It started almost 2 yrs back, Heard lot of ohhs and ahhhs all around. Consulted almost every doctor I can put my hands on to. Checked their degrees , no of yrs on thier back, the way they want to treat me, yes I also tried to see how good are the nurses in their clinics like a fringing interviewer. I was happy to get one sweet doctor who actually listened to me like a new found lover who just want to listen to all the agonies and other stuff too. She gave me lot of confidence, so since then when everything seem to get back in shape I noticed something and duuuh. I want to be back. The reason? I know it all. I was late in realizing it but I did http://my-aura.blogspot.com/2006/04/pearls-game-life.html#links , htt...

Mood: Yay... Goa ROX Music: out of my head - Fastball Goa was pure fun....! Don't wanna write about the trip now, maybe later in short snippets of my harrowing thoughtfulness or would I say, the churning that went thru my mind. Have been sorting it out and have, I think, came to terms with it. ‘Couldn't sleep all night last night, because of it.’ I am happy today. Sometimes confronting people and situations can actually lead to a resolutions of a kind. There is a sense of release today and I am happy. Hope it continues like this.....

I had shivers running across my outstretched hand, as I fiddled with my phone and heard an absent clock chime unseen nocturnal hours. It had been so long when the call had come through at night 'It's me' I knew. I knew the voice. It didn't need a name. It was a voice I had once grown to wake up to. It was a voice that I used to snuggle up to, late in the night, when after work I slid into the darkness of the warm bed. 'How are you?' Why do we always deal in inane questions at the most important moments in life? The other side sounded like good ol pal who just kept the phone few hours back and called up again to check how I am. I wanted to ask why and I did. 'i called you because....' I feel like a message in a bottle. Afloat but not sure where I am going to go!

Despite all the odds. She's the one I will always respect and care.

Music: Wild Horses - Rolling Stones I was trying to get to sleep but I suddenly got this massive insight that I just had to record. It's just that all the decisions we think are critical - which college to join, which company to work for, who to marry, where to live, etc - they're all completely irrelevant. They can completely change the path you take admittedly but that's not important. The really important decisions are the ones you make in every moment in your life that determine your attitude to living. They are the ones you don't even notice yourself making at the time. Investing in a penthouse with a beautiful view of the sea is not a big decision. Deciding to go for a walk on the beach at midnight is. Sending your kid to the most expensive school is not a big decision. Deciding to stop your work for a second to answer your son's question about ghosts is. Marrying the woman from the right family and with the right looks is not a big decision. Deciding to send...