JFU

Where lies the problem? Why the conflict? Perceptions versus reality? Or just skewered reality versus dimmed perception? When life is such a big mystery what am I doing wasting time in a small things! Will i ever work this out? Does anyone really know the answer? Does anyone care?

Current Music - Zakk Wylde---Book of shadows(complete Album) Does this journal exist if no one reads it? I haven't really told anyone about it yet. Should set that right soon. Is it possible to hum a poem? I did find myself doing that earlier today. I didn't mean to memorize it when I read it, but it happened and the words seemed to have found a place on the tickertape of my mind. God loves us all, I'm pleased to say. Or those who love him, anyway. Or those who love him, and are good. Or so they say. Or so he should. -Vikram Seth

Just came across this sentence.... I was discussing something with a gal who sits opposite me, from nowhere she said, "attention matters more than love." I do agree with this.....!

Finally today I watched television, Asian Teleshop is selling breast enhancement pads with far infrared ceramic vibrators that stimulates hormones for breast growth. The advertisment came complete with 3D models of balloning breasts and testimonials from happy users, including a happy mother-daughter pair. :)

So I've decided to let my hair grow long and free-flowing.Trouble is, it's growing in the wrong direction. It's five inches long in front, and barely 1.5 inch at my neck. Just hope I don't chicken out and visit a barber again. I've been trying to do this for a whole year now.

Her lovely face now adorns my desktop, where I gaze at it all day — in meetings, during phone calls, while writing code — throughout the day.I look at her face and think, either I could be the bum she's stuck with for a good part of her life, or I could be the wonderful companion she likes to think I am. And thus now there is a source of inspiration that wasn't before.

Hey.... atlast some goodnews...... Ammu is getting married on 23rd Feb, Karan is following and then it would be Gaurav's turn though Praveen is also in line. Hope Domino effect continues :)

Oh yes I forgot to tell that I finally visited the Sinhagad Fort. Too tired to write in the details but it was a great trip, something I wanted to do for a long time......

So continuing from the night before, my mood was still on the downside. I never got so much upset on trivial things. But it was not trivial this time. Hope she understands..

So how does it feel........? I asked this question to myself. Didn't get any answer. I dont know why I deleted what I just wrote here. well I just dont want to write anything I think.....

To use a cliché, I’ve been glued to my screen all day (now that’s two clichés). Do you have yawns so long, they sound like wails?

Just wanted to see how this works............

"I've been through it all, and nothing works better than to have somebody you love hold you." Lennon. From http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/entertainment/4489772.stm

Last night a beggar accosted me at University Road crossing and left me very disturbed.I do not give money to beggars as a matter of principle. I have always believed that anyone who can’t work to support themselves doesn’t deserve to get it free. I’ve lately come to believe that giving money to beggars is not just a bad idea, it’s plain evil. When you give money to a beggar, you’re destroying his will to support himself. A beggar who’s not had to support himself for a while no longer knows how to. He’s permanently disabled, using society as a crutch. And it only gets worse with time.If you’ve ever walked down Koregaon Park road with a fair skinned person and seen beggars swarming around him, you know how when you try to pry the beggars off, they tell you to stop hassling them so they may continue hassling your friend. Their dependence on the societal crutch has grown to the extent that they consider this their God-given right.If you really care for their welfare, you should give your ...

I had just seated for lunch this afternoon, alone, when a couple of guys sat down at my table across from me. They finished their meal and were getting up to leave when one of them turned and said (paraphrasing):“Hey, you know what, you need to get some manners. When you kick someone under the table, you should have the courtesy to apologise.”The actual version was much longer. I was naturally flabbergasted. The best I could muster up was “sorry, I didn’t realise it was your leg.” It left me upset for a while. This person had the concern to tell me I was doing something wrong. How often was I being insensitive to the people around me, leaving them upset and silent?And then it occurred that this was the same smartass who sat at my table without bothering to ask if I minded, or if I was expecting someone, and then talked loudly throughout the period, so much so that when he addressed me it was a couple of seconds before I noticed.The world is full of self-righteous people.With the clarit...

Current music: Nancy Wilson - Lucky Trumble Me too sick to write something. Came to te office but couldn't help myself out to post this. David Weinberger brings up this example of a very narrow definition of a friend , like on Blogspot or Orkut, but taken from real life.

Whole day kept working on the single error that I got in last 3 weeks of migration. Me feelign bit feverish....waiting for the clock to stuck 7:30 so that I can attend the F******G meeting and get back to my room. I need to sleep............ cannot with two bucket full of clothes to wash :(

At the Symbiosis canteen today, three students pulled out a guitar and strummed away to classic pop songs.The sound of an acoustic guitar played live; the faces of those three men, so plainly uninhibited and oblivious to the world around them… little things that add up to a pleasant day

This was the first time I traveled in Air Deccan, they suck bigtime. Crampy seats and the best part was when I asked the surdi gal to give me a window seat just like any child would want to peep outside for 2 hours She gave me a mocking smile and said I can sit anywhere I like. I was dumb struck with her remark. then came to know that in that flight you can actually sit wherever you want to. I ran at the back to get the last seat so that I would be the first one to get out(the excitement inside made me lil wiser) All the legspace provide in there would have made me the last one to get out. Then an idea struck. I got up and grabbed a window seat on the emergency door. There I could atleast stretch my legs and also got to hear some instructions from the not up to the mark airhostess regarding how to open the emergency gates. :) they left the fate of all the 189 passengers in my hand. Good to know that. The Crux: Never fly Air Deccan. its no doubt low budget airline but do think before yo...

Guys this is called something a dream come true........ No fog, no glitiches just 2 hours delay and I was there in Delhi. Magnificiant indeed. well no details here... but I am a happy for US. I got to meet all of my friends though missed 2.

These aren’t things I’ve done, since there’s barely any worth mentioning, but simply significant points in my life. 1 . At age 8, contemplated suicide. Didn’t have the gall to pull it off. Decided instead to live to 90+. I suspect there were a few years between these two, but memory fails. 2. Also at age 8, learnt a new word in English class: ‘vow’. The chapter was on Sarojini Naidu taking a vow in the years leading to India’s independence. Fascinated, decided to test drive one. Vowed against cruelty to animals, where the definition of ‘animal’ extended to anything living and not a plant. Spent several years rescuing ants from the toilet bowl before realising that perfect compliance was impossible. Have never squashed a cockroach. 3. Somewhere in the middle of a lonely childhood, one Diwali, on the terrace, some kids remarked that it would be funny if a sparkler fell on the kid below, and I promptly threw mine. I missed, but the horror lasted years. 4. In the same period, was struck by...

So me back again today too. They say its good to let your thoughts out rather than keeping in urself and getting burnt every single second. Yeah I know why not people around? Have lot of people around and they have made a rosy picture of me, I don't know from where they had this picture of mine that me is perfect guy and nobody can say anything about me or dont want to be with me. This are the exact words of the gal out here, she told me today in the cafetaria :) good to hear all these and I did not had courage to tell them what inside me, maybe cauz they would know that the so called happy happy thingy in my life is not that happy and then it will lead to all the people talking about and I don't like it. Simple. Now everyone everyday asks about her, and I do not have any words to compliment their questions. Might be this is the reason of not talking to them, fear that they would ask about her and I do not know what to respond. So I am running away from everyone. The mind and...

As the title says, I am finally logged in, logged in to the concept that I don't' like and I still go by my own convection of doing things. So I start this blog with some stuff that I wrote at home but forgot to transfer it to this place. Well now I think thts best that happened, not posted the stuff. It was about someone and now I don't want that someone to read that crap I wrote. I was just looking for the pics of the carter road cafe coffee day, wanted to show it to K. as it was a bliss sitting there and sipping the Italian cafe watching the sea outside. It just makes you so close to everything you love. Its one of the most beautiful places I have ever been and the guy who took that pic had a blog, I went through it and found him to be cyber junkie like me and he also mentioned some stuff like Zope. Never heard of this technology but it sound good as it has an open source. BTW there's the road in the pic alla long the sea side. Almost spent half of the day at office...