back here to the unknown world...

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So me back again today too.
They say its good to let your thoughts out rather than keeping in urself and getting burnt every single second. Yeah I know why not people around? Have lot of people around and they have made a rosy picture of me, I don't know from where they had this picture of mine that me is perfect guy and nobody can say anything about me or dont want to be with me.
This are the exact words of the gal out here, she told me today in the cafetaria :) good to hear all these and I did not had courage to tell them what inside me, maybe cauz they would know that the so called happy happy thingy in my life is not that happy and then it will lead to all the people talking about and I don't like it. Simple.
Now everyone everyday asks about her, and I do not have any words to compliment their questions. Might be this is the reason of not talking to them, fear that they would ask about her and I do not know what to respond. So I am running away from everyone.

The mind and heart are just like whirlpool right now. All the things churning inside, though how hard I try to concentrate on work, I cannot, same thoughts come along and then you just are lost....
I dont know when I will be back to my own like I was a week back.
when i'll be back, when she'll understand all this?
God why u did this...................I didn't do anything bad then why you've taken my happiness :( the only thing I was happy about in my life :(

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