The lost me...
I am feeling lonely. Yes, I know that is like a monthly refrain now,but to day is that day. I am suddenly feeling extremely unwanted and unloved (I think it must be the distances between the people who matter. Geography sucks and I always knew it!) It is a miserably mournful feeling to suddenly start going through the phone book in order to see if there is anybody I can tap on and say, 'hug me' because I need one...and thats where the misery starts. When one realizes that no sirreee! there is no such person around, not right now.
New places (even if they are just old places being rediscovered) are scary. I have been meeting up with new people but somehow (I think it is the early arrival of old age) these meetings have no charm, no excitement, absolutely no fun left. I feel empty and unfulfilled all the time.
Friends are being perfectly pathetic. Ms Star TV is as usual so selflessly immersed in her own self and doing that the lesser said the better, who's life now revolves not beyond the soap operas but with the so called shiny stars of these soap operasss. Do I come come any closer to them for her to even think of me....Nahhh!
Newly Bloated (Anki)(poor thing, she has resorted to diets I guess) is working most of the time, the days at the office, the nights in her imagination, well I know what she is going through these days. But still hello..will you wake up and call me.
Mr Orion is in a 'I hate the world' phase. Abe C get out of it and help me out first.
What else? ya...I was waiting for a call from Ms Star TV - a promised call mind you, and it still hasn't come. Grrrrrrrr *snarls in anger*
Our Arnold Joshi, The only married guy around us seems to be struggling with the weight...of course not of his wife but of the new life...He is just so lost that I hope I can be of any help to him to help me. Or is it the married life does this to someone?
The whoreassed bastardous Mr Manager has not returned my attempts at calling him in about one week - and I have sent him messages and tried to call him every fucking day of this one week *slightly over exaggerated* And now I hate him and...erggghhhhh somebody kick him in his balls! Fuckin scorp head did not even reply with thanks for the B'Day msg I left for him.
The lovely Ms k also seem to be in hibernation but well I don't think I can ask for anything more from her or should I, damm she's the one who was always around any time of the day or rather there was no clock involved. Still...... yes...should I?.... huuuu :( :) what...?
And as per my roommate, I need sex. The only answer he has to any question under the sun.
Is that it....? Yes the list is over.....!
I have gone back to not sleeping - I was hoping that a change of locales will cure it- But now I sit owl eyed in front of the computer and stare at the fucking screen and fucking nothing comes to me. And it is fucking fucking! There is such a relief in saying fucking.
Ya, thats about it. Life seems at a standstill right now. Ranting over. Everybody breathe now.
New places (even if they are just old places being rediscovered) are scary. I have been meeting up with new people but somehow (I think it is the early arrival of old age) these meetings have no charm, no excitement, absolutely no fun left. I feel empty and unfulfilled all the time.
Friends are being perfectly pathetic. Ms Star TV is as usual so selflessly immersed in her own self and doing that the lesser said the better, who's life now revolves not beyond the soap operas but with the so called shiny stars of these soap operasss. Do I come come any closer to them for her to even think of me....Nahhh!
Newly Bloated (Anki)(poor thing, she has resorted to diets I guess) is working most of the time, the days at the office, the nights in her imagination, well I know what she is going through these days. But still hello..will you wake up and call me.
Mr Orion is in a 'I hate the world' phase. Abe C get out of it and help me out first.
What else? ya...I was waiting for a call from Ms Star TV - a promised call mind you, and it still hasn't come. Grrrrrrrr *snarls in anger*
Our Arnold Joshi, The only married guy around us seems to be struggling with the weight...of course not of his wife but of the new life...He is just so lost that I hope I can be of any help to him to help me. Or is it the married life does this to someone?
The whoreassed bastardous Mr Manager has not returned my attempts at calling him in about one week - and I have sent him messages and tried to call him every fucking day of this one week *slightly over exaggerated* And now I hate him and...erggghhhhh somebody kick him in his balls! Fuckin scorp head did not even reply with thanks for the B'Day msg I left for him.
The lovely Ms k also seem to be in hibernation but well I don't think I can ask for anything more from her or should I, damm she's the one who was always around any time of the day or rather there was no clock involved. Still...... yes...should I?.... huuuu :( :) what...?
And as per my roommate, I need sex. The only answer he has to any question under the sun.
Is that it....? Yes the list is over.....!
I have gone back to not sleeping - I was hoping that a change of locales will cure it- But now I sit owl eyed in front of the computer and stare at the fucking screen and fucking nothing comes to me. And it is fucking fucking! There is such a relief in saying fucking.
Ya, thats about it. Life seems at a standstill right now. Ranting over. Everybody breathe now.
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So u are back...Ms Cracker(well I have full authority to give you any name..huu)
No its not a challange...Its something very plain.
Here am not realising pits n falls...I neeed someone to talk to.
You need to find yourself a diversion all by yourself and not depend on others cause they will not be around necessarily as per you needs and times.
Sorry again Ms cracker..the people I've mentioned are always available....well the need only comes in picture when there's some gap. All damm idiots.
and yes this is not what makes people strong n superhuman and Blah blah blah.....what makes them strong is a nice company of people who love n care.
read my post again now....I know you'r intelligent enough to get what I wrote.
and yes I All I asked was a hug.
Finally was able to get few people back on track.... Some are still behaving weird.
My wrath would fall on them sooon and thee will be beheaded.