Awe
It was a day that hung like the dot under an ! mark. Round and suspended and full of jabs in the sides and pokes in the ribs as people pointed out the thisness and thatness of the much and such life.
When everything was suppose to be going fine, something new started......
It started almost 2 yrs back, Heard lot of ohhs and ahhhs all around. Consulted almost every doctor I can put my hands on to. Checked their degrees , no of yrs on thier back, the way they want to treat me, yes I also tried to see how good are the nurses in their clinics like a fringing interviewer.
I was happy to get one sweet doctor who actually listened to me like a new found lover who just want to listen to all the agonies and other stuff too. She gave me lot of confidence, so since then when everything seem to get back in shape I noticed something and duuuh. I want to be back.
The reason? I know it all. I was late in realizing it but I did http://my-aura.blogspot.com/2006/04/pearls-game-life.html#links , http://my-aura.blogspot.com/2006/06/changes.html#links, http://my-aura.blogspot.com/2006/04/nuts-n-nutties.html#links followed it but still couldn't get out http://my-aura.blogspot.com/2006/05/rain-tractor.html#links though most of the time the memories were sweet http://my-aura.blogspot.com/2006/06/felafel-sandwich.html#links.
I am happy to have people around me who can light up thousand bulbs to show me the way and make me smile.
When everything was suppose to be going fine, something new started......
It started almost 2 yrs back, Heard lot of ohhs and ahhhs all around. Consulted almost every doctor I can put my hands on to. Checked their degrees , no of yrs on thier back, the way they want to treat me, yes I also tried to see how good are the nurses in their clinics like a fringing interviewer.
I was happy to get one sweet doctor who actually listened to me like a new found lover who just want to listen to all the agonies and other stuff too. She gave me lot of confidence, so since then when everything seem to get back in shape I noticed something and duuuh. I want to be back.
The reason? I know it all. I was late in realizing it but I did http://my-aura.blogspot.com/2006/04/pearls-game-life.html#links , http://my-aura.blogspot.com/2006/06/changes.html#links, http://my-aura.blogspot.com/2006/04/nuts-n-nutties.html#links followed it but still couldn't get out http://my-aura.blogspot.com/2006/05/rain-tractor.html#links though most of the time the memories were sweet http://my-aura.blogspot.com/2006/06/felafel-sandwich.html#links.
I am happy to have people around me who can light up thousand bulbs to show me the way and make me smile.
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But I don't understand why things come back once they are long gone. When you seem to forget the past, they come up right in front of you, scary with different sign boards hung around with disgruntled figures and shapes and at the same time apologizing with their heart out in open with promise of never will fade away togetherness.
So what to do then....?
when other person is ready to make up for everything and want to be back.
Then the question comes up whether to melt like an ice cream and forgive everything or to be like an oak tree fighting a storm.
yes then also its all about the preferences and sticking to them.
The world doesn't stop for anyone but its our own garden where we have seen flowers bloom and then fall off. its about being again in bliss if you get those beautiful flowers again whose company you use to cherish and enjoy.